Past, Future & Present - I think that pretty much sums it up XD

Hello all!!

Erm, well right now i am home alone =D because my brother is at a cricket thingy and my parents have gone along too, but I didn't want to go =L I have to go to the presentation evening later on though *rolls eyes* Nah actually its not too bad, its just watching a 4 hour long cricket match that doesn't appeal to me >.< I'd much rather watch footie, so much more interesting imo.
Talking of footie, my brother (Alex btw) also plays for two footie teams, one of which won the double last season!!! =D I'm so proud of them, when Alex joined (his old club folded, but that's another story) the club were bottom of the league and hadn't won any of their games, and now they've won the double!! I'm not saying it was Alex who transformed the team, I'm saying it was a group effort and they deserve it!
Also, while we're on the subject of football, I thought I'd mention that I support Manchester United, and have done since I was 6 ^^ Though some people don't believe a girl can have supported a team for that long unless they actually live there (which I don't XD). I remember when I made a piczo site once, I made a page completely dedicated to Man Utd, and on the shoutbox, someone said "You only support Man U because your boyfriend does!" The problem with that was that my boyfriend at the time supported Arsenal =L
Oh, btw, I will one day tell you about my love life up til now, but all you need to know now is that I'm VERY happy with Yung, and I don't want anyone else ^^

On another note, yesterday I got my first GCSE result! Yes, I know I'm in year 10, but at my school, we take one Science GCSE in year 10, and the rest in year 11. Well, anyway... I got a B! Which I'm happy with, because I never wanted anything higher than a B in Science as it's not a subject I'm bothered about, but I'm kinda annoyed because in both my exams for it I got A*s (pretty good for a subject I don't really care about =L), but my coursework was an E, which is what brought it down... =/ thought to be fair, it wasn't ENTIRELY my fault I did so crappy, because:
1. In year 9, after we'd taken our SATs, we got split up into mixed ability groups for Science (our form groups), and we started doing our Can-Do tasks, but never completed them (partly because of being a mixed ability group, partly because of not enough time). Then, when we returned to school in year 10, we got put into new sets, but all of us had done different Can-Do tasks, so trying to do ones that weren't repeated for some people was really difficult and would've wasted time we could've spent studying.
2. The week we did our Science In The News task, it was a really bad time for me. I won't go into detail, but right then, I didn't see the point in even living, let alone trying in a subject I didn't like.
I'm ok now, those bad times are over, but still, it's hard seeing your hard work to try to get over it being brought down because of your past =/
Hmm
If you wanna know, the subjects I took to GCSE are Drama (I want to be an actress when I'm older), Music (I've studied music in some form or another from the age of 6, so it made no sense NOT to take it, besides, I love music ^^), French (I wanted to take a language because I knew it would be useful, and I chose French because I'm better at German =L I know that makes no sense, but it did to me - I wanted to get to the same level in French that I was at German, because, imo, its better to be able to speak two extra languages moderately well than one very well and one not so well =) and now I'm higher in French anyway =D), and Graphics (I only took Graphics because my school is a technology college so we HAVE to take a tech, and it was the best out of a bad bunch - Food Tech was out because I can't cook anything in under an hour =L; Textiles I'm crap at =L; Engineering is a double and I was already struggling to choose with only 3 options other than a tech; and Resistant Materials I'm also crap at XD so I chose Graphics... and I'm SO glad I did, its SO much fun and I'm doing really well in it =D My coursework is getting marked over the hols, I've worked really hard on it so fingers crossed I'll get an A!)
Also, we have to take double Science (one this year, one next year), English (literature and language), Maths, and the ICT DiDa (which I am failing so miserably because the teacher is crap XD)

Erm... yes, on a slightly deeper note, I've discovered something about myself. Because I've had a lot of crap happen in my life, but I've always been really positive about it, until eventually it kinda all got too much and yeah, that was when I was talking about earlier =/ But I got over that, I learnt to push everything to the back of my mind again, until a couple of days ago, I got reminded of stuff again, and I had a cry about it, went to sleep, got up the next morning feeling bad still (though I think that was because I had a really crappy dream =(), then started talking to people and getting on with stuff and felt better, normal again (well normal for me XD). And it was then that I realised what I'd done wrong before - I CAN'T push the past away forever, because it's happened and there's no changing that, and everything that's happened in my past has made me who I am. Sometimes, I NEED to remember the past in order to remember who I am. If I try to hide it away forever, I will fail and end up worse off. If I bring everything up occasionally, I can understand it more, well maybe not understand it, but accept it, and then go back to normal, and I'll still be ME.

Erm... yeah...

On a lighter note, my mum's now coming home which means I'll have to get ready for the presentation evening soon, and the weather's horrible, and I think there's a spider on my ceiling D=

Oh also, we're looking after a family friend's cat, Peugoet, because they're going on holiday and he has a dislocated hip =( and our cats, Dusty and Angel, are reacting in completely different ways =L Angel's just not going anywhere near him but Dusty keeps hissing and growling and staring at him =L As long as he doesn't go for him, he's fine =)

And another thing - my crappy youtube vids are STILL not uploading! =O Noooooo!!!! You're not missing much though =P

Well, that's all for now XD If you've got here then you must have a lot of patience XD you virtuous person =O

Au revoir!